Restless Excitement

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I am a fidgety person.  I blame it on my attention deficit issues, it comes with the territory.  My mind wonders and my feet move, my fingers tap, I click my pen, and so on.  When I talk on the phone – especially if it’s important, I can’t seem to sit still – I have to pace around.  I recently took a phone interview…in the middle of a Sheetz…after traveling for 20+ hours.  During that 10 minute phone call, I found myself circling every aisle as if I was possessed and looking for something.  It wasn’t even a normal stroll up one aisle and down the other, I looked like a lost animal trying to find the exit.  I would take one step in this direction, spin around, walk 10 steps another way, turn again.  I am sure it was comical to watch.

Restlessness can also creep up in our spiritual life.  Sometimes this is a bad thing.  Sometimes, we get to a point where we are confused about what God wants from us, or how we should follow Him.  We may feel uneasy with where our life is right now, and not know which way to turn.  I have experienced a little bit of that as I search for a new career.   My mind says find something that pays the bills, but my heart is tugging toward something that fulfills God’s plan for my life.  I don’t want to make the wrong decision or miss an open door because I am too restless and unwilling to slow down, trust God and listen to the Holy Spirit.  Today, I have been challenged to think of restlessness as a good thing.

This week has been a crazy period of adjusting to the time change, geography change and most importantly, daily life change.  I prayed and thanked God for the experience and the life changing passion He has given me for foreign missions.  I love going where He sends me and just being wide open and willing to do whatever is asked of me.  There is something free about following God’s leading.  Now that I am back home, I went through an adjustment, but there is a restless excitement.  I am not content to come back and put that mission trip on the shelf and just reminisce about how nice it was.  I have a desire to serve here just like we served while we were on the field.  I’m on edge looking for opportunity and trying to listen to the Holy Spirit.  I don’t want to miss out.

God gives us that restlessness so we are drawn to Him.  When we think of restlessness because we are unsure, it’s God – the firm rock and foundation of our lives that we turn to.   When we are unsure of what’s next in life, we can look to God and His word and understand our purpose.  Our restlessness is a tool that God uses to disturb the status-quo and move us closer to His will.  As part of the idea of being intentional, take the restlessness that you may feel and intentionally seek God’s heart.  Take the time to pray and look for the opportunities that He is presenting so you can draw closer to Him.  God’s desire is a relationship with us, his creation.  When we give our life to Christ, He spends the rest of our days helping us live out the plan He has had for each of us since the beginning of time.

My challenge to you today is simple.  Don’t ignore or try to quiet your restless heart.  Instead embrace it, become excited by it and look for the purpose.  Be bold for Christ and refuse to settle for “good enough.”  Be intentional and open your heart so that you are leaning fully on faith and go!  Remember what Paul wrote – But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 3:20).  We aren’t done until we are home.  That restless excitement is God pushing us deeper and deeper into Him.  Giving us a heart that longs for our heavenly home and understanding the purpose while we wait for that homecoming.

Father, today, I thank you that I am uncomfortable.  I’m not meant to be comfortable on this side of eternity.  There is work to be done, and I thank you that you are moving to make me aware of that.  I pray you’ll continue to build this desire in me to serve you, wherever you put me.  Thank you for this intentional attitude.  I pray that I am sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit, yet bold and courageous to answer with full faith in you.  In your name I pray – Amen.

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